I woke up with a sparkle today!
I woke up with a sparkle today,
The air around me,
Fresh, crisp and invigorating,
I watched a little birdie tap on my window…
I woke up with a sparkle today,
The air around me,
Fresh, crisp and invigorating,
I watched a little birdie tap on my window…
She encouraged me as she pat my back and told me it would be okay,
That it was okay to not get it right the first time,
That failure was part of this life,
That I just needed to pick myself up.
I woke feeling disgruntled,
Unsatisfied about what life had become,
I tried counting my blessings,
I failed terribly because I ended up focusing on what wasn’t working.
To the days I doubted myself,
I am sorry for not having enough self-belief,
To the days I procrastinated,
I am sorry for putting us behind schedule with our dreams,
The political elite, The ones we elected after a mountain of promises were made, On those days when they spent hours on end on the campaign trail, Do you see how they laugh at us now? Our lives, Mere sound bites for them, Another opportunity to sell their agenda on national television, Yet we keep giving them airtime. We became footnotes, Forgotten, Our parents, living in fear, Threatened about how well they raised us, A barometer of whether we deserve to be abducted or not. A barometer for the guarantee of our safety and security. We must end this impunity! Let’s make our voices count, Our ballots, our shield and defender! Come next election, Dawn will find us at the polling station!
She was just but a little girl, Living her life and enjoying her childhood, Trying to make memories, That would last her a lifetime. She was just but a little girl, When they killed her dreams and aspirations She was just but a little girl, When they married her to a 70-year-old man. She was just but a little girl, When they pinned her down so he could put his manhood into her. She was just but a little girl, Holding onto a little girl Hoping that she doesn’t grow up so soon, For the world was ready, But she wasn’t ready to go. She wasn’t ready, For her little one to become another child bride, This story would have turned out differently, Is a song she sings in her head. She was just but a little girl, Wishing, hoping, and now, She sheds a tear, Then a river, She hopes that this is not ocean bound.
He told so many lies he forgot what the truth looked like, He sowed seeds of hope that he could not keep up with, He took away from the poor their last dime in the name of development, Then he vanished until the next elections. Now we see him walking, He wants to be relatable, So, he left his range rover at the edge of the village. He knocks on every door, Accepting the cup of tea offered with disdain, He is selling his manifesto again A humble servant of the people, He wants us to re-elect him, That he will finish tarmacking the old Nairobi Road. That the government hospital will finally get a new x-ray machine in his new term, That the new health insurance will finally cover the poor Eti afya yangu bima yangu. He came with his usual bribe, A 50 bob here and there, A packet of unga, He left feeling accomplished, That a difference he had made. We looked at him disappear, We now know his tactics, Tomorrow we will show up at the ballot box and vote for change, We are tired! And we finally realize that it has always been our decision to make!
She grew up marginalized, From lack of basic needs, To education being a luxury, Something meant for boys, Because they said her role was in the kitchen and bedroom. They forced her to undergo the cut, That it made her a woman they said, And after that, she was ready for marriage, At the tender age of 11, Just when her small boobs had started hardening, What would her young one suckle from? And in a room of four men, They held her legs apart and pinned her hands, And he forced himself into her, A baby giving birth to another baby, She had become his fifth wife. See, she did not have the luxury of an education, The know-how of motherhood, Her baby tries to nibble at her nipples, He yells at the lack of breast milk. She is tired of living, And wonders if there was ever anything beyond this life she lives. Conforming, That’s all she got!
Wanjiku Wa Comba, My childhood friend and playmate, Do you still remember those days we played in the rain; Despite our parents’ efforts to keep us indoors? Do you remember us sliding on those muddy giant anthills? Do you remember…? That day we were taken ill with fever. Because we could not have enough of the hailstones, Our mvua ya mawe… Wanjiku Wa Comba, My childhood confidant, Do you still remember? How inseparable we were, How everyone kept wondering; Why we would never leave each other’s side? Yes Wanjiku, you the only one I told of the happenings at home. I knew my secret was safe with you, Unlike Kamau, Liz, Otieno and Chebet; Who would laugh out loud and tell the whole world what conspired. I miss these childhood moments, It feels like yesterday at times. Not to forget teenage, Yeah, Young, wild and “free” I know you know what I mean, Our mothers putting us under scrutiny, A close eye like hawks, Always checking out for signs of morning sickness, Because they said times had changed, And the fear of the unknown… Yes, and those very lengthy talks About why we should not be seen about toying with the village “boys” Yes Wanjiku, how we tried to hide our small boobs. And how it embarrassed us to see them pop up our dresses For the whole world to see! And the glory we brought our village, For having produced the best girls to attend high school, And later the prestigious tertiary education albeit That the few men had managed to get never made any good use of it. But showing off in the local clubs. So Wanjiku, After all these years of toiling, Working against all odds, I am happy to inform you, That it paid, I now own my kiosk Yes, I always wanted to be an entrepreneur, I am making a few dollars a day and I am happy, What did you make of your life? #written July 2014
Dream, Yes,allow yourself to dream, Live, Allow yourself to live your dreams. Act, Allow yourself to act on your dreams. ? Life can be miserable, But the hope of tomorrow, Let it be,the drive that you seek. Hope, Hope that tomorrow still counts, Pray, Pray that when dawn breaks you still have a purpose to live for For even in the darkest of nights, Dawn still breaks. Tomorrow will still come